New Start

1st of July-2011. A complete new start of my life. A new chapter gonna start from today. It is new not just because of new job. but many things or you can say almost everything has been changed. As I said past month was very hard for me. I lost so many things that only I can understand. But for new start I have make everything new in me. You can say I have just restarted my system. I bought new phone, new purse, new tifin box, new dresses :) I must mention that in my lifetime this is for the first time I did these much shopping. Otherwise I used not spend a penny anywhere. Specially for me. I used not even buy water untill it is too much of need. I got nokia 5233 touchscreen phone. It seems quite cool. Everything is new. But memories are still there. :) I am missing those relations and friends which I lost last month unfortunately. :( But there is nothing I can do except moving on so rather then regretting I have opted way of moving on. So that's what I am doing. When I came for an interview in this company I read a slang that was "Don't regret, LEARN and move on" nice one. Because regreting can't do anything so just learn from your mistakes and move on. The situation for me is like God put me on a way and I am supposeto walk on and I am walking on. Honestly I don't know where am I going and whats the destination. I am just walking along. Each time I used to make decision but this time I left decision on God and just walking all the way. I have full trust on God that he wont make any wrong decision for me and lead me toward the happiness, I am

willing to have.

Because as I said I dream of being a successful career woman whene people used to say "good morning mam". Right now I am on that way. I am at senior level I got that job which I was willing to have. In career I am getting everything or almost everything I wanted to have. But as we used to say man's desires are endless. That is happeming to me. Now that sleeping girl inside me has waken up somewhere and has started feeling to have someone special in life with whom I can share evrything. My happiness, sadness, anger, love, everything. I am feelingthe emtiness somewhere. I want that shoulder where I can put my head and get relaxed. I am missing those arms who hold me tight and say "hey sweety don't u worry, I m wid u forever." Yeah I am missing my dreamboy at this stage and I wish I get him sooner in my life. I am not looking for a film star. I just want a simple, sober, well educated and well cultured boy with courage to hold my hand in any situation. I have that guts to fight against the situation but my man need to have at least that dare that he can stand by me at extreme situation. Well I have left this task to my parents so I am not worrying much for this. They will find the best match for me. You also pray for me that I get my prince charming asap. If I get him in this year, I would like to get engaged on 11-11-11 :)

But right now i am starting a new chapter and pretty exited and bit nervous as well. I am willing to get new work, friends and so on. But I wish I get goodie goodie things there. :)

Quite long post it is. right.. Let's say bye for now. I am going for now and catch you soon here. Though have busy schedules, I"ll try to write regularly. Till then Be happy and try to make others happy :)